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Hmmmmmmm.....Life.........sucks:-)
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Sep 1, 2009 2:50 pm
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Hi friends........... ..........its 2.30 AM ......n m still not sleepy...........another sleepless nite. Today i had been thru Nivedita's website........ Painful.......laters went thru Shaitaan's blog... Painful again... [ had a painful day ].. ...
..I tried to sleep...but cudn't.. Remembered my Mom.n feltlike sharin a very painful chapter of my life... My Mommy...A very beautiful lady .... My parents had a love marriage.... n i was d only child... very pampered n loved... but sumthin was wrong wid my parents....They used to fight very often... i didn't understand why but was scared ...I was six yr old then... in my own world... never ever dreamt of d day wen mom died ...[in fact she committed suicide ].... it was 24th December... we were happily preparin for Christmas... I was ready wid my Pink lacy Frock... with two long ponytails...white shoes... Mommy kissed my forehead n said I am d most beautiful n sweet daughter on earth [N i was ]....we were waitin for my Dad to come home ... Mom was preparin her special Chicken n Pork dish... kitchen was smellin yummy... Dad came...he was heavily drunk.. I cud sense something wrong.I shrinked to one corner... in few mins they both started abusin each other... I was scared....... Dad left out of home in anger... I didn't dare to go to d kitchen...N after sometime i heard a loud shriek frmd kitchen..... i ran to d kitchen n to my horror.... Mom was burnin n completely in flames... she was screamin n was askin me to stay away.... I hurried out to call d neighbours... they all rushed to my house....i was cryin loudly... somewhere searchin for my Dad... after an hour or so an Ambulance was at d door... Momy was lied on the stretcher... i reached out to hold her hand...wanted to touch her ...only burnt flesh was in my hand... I was blank.. d Ambulance started.... I ran after d Ambulance for along time jus to have a look at Mommy...Her Beautiful face was all charred n black.....She died in d Hospital... later i was escorted to one of my neighbours house... Cudn't see dad anywhere... I was in a trance for many days... N in two months Dad admitted me in an Orphanage.... tht was d last day i saw my Dad... I dunno if hez still alive... he came to meet me in d orphanage but at first i denied to meet him coz i was scared...later i hated him so much tht i never wanted to see his face... I can never ever forgive him...Mom died n at d same time I died too...My life ended then n there... I was too small to know why she took tht step... y she didn't think abt her only daughter... but in few years some relatives told me d truth... Dad was havin a serious relationship wid a Muslim lady n was adamant to marry her to which Mom was firmly against... D betrayal frm Dad was not accpeted by Mommy... She cudn't bear d insult n pain n agony n she killed herself... Its almost 34 yrs now... N i still cud not erase tht incident frm my mind... i still feel her presence around me... I can feel her everytime i'm lonely n depressed...she guides me n guards me too.......I love her.......I dun have her pic .... wen ever i think of her i can see only her burnt body n face... its still so fresh in my mind..... N my painful life started frm here...........................>>>>
To be contd>>>>.
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