LOOSING FAMILY Nov 2, 2009 3:38 pm Mood: sympathetic, 323 Views not until I saw her face and I couldn't hear her voice not until I shed a tear and I could nt say a word not until I felt the pain it seemed I loved and lost the questions lingered why????, how????? but who am I to know oh what a tragedy, oh what a waste leaving life so early, in such a haste. and in the twinkle of an eye without a warning or a sign I am a mother, I am a dad I am so scared all i do is cry how did this happen? why come to me I should have died in place of her but there's a purpose, there's a plan I should just keep telling myself Yes I can But then I remember you're not here anymore and I smile and find courage in the three you adore I miss you so dearly words cannot say I know you're watching over us time immortal, always. To my darling sister who passed away early last month. Love you always Kuka. 13 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFAIR pt7 Sep 26, 2009 12:35 am 1204 Views Today I made love to London via internet, they call it cy ber sex, but this was more than the un seeming satisfaction of fulfilling ones sensual desires by watching a man or woman masturbate through a web cam, this was heated passionate love making, the physical and spiritual intertwining, exploring and discovering of our physical being by touching, feeling, rubbing, tasting. .....ohhhhh, it couldn't be more real, the way he romanced me with his words, first pulling me near and embracing me like a mother would a child, then softly brushing the hair off my fore head, and kissing me tenderly on my head, then my eye lids, then my nose, then my cheeks, and as I desperately await his lips on mine, he kisses my ears, tracing the line of my ear with his tongue.......aaaaarrrgggg I shudder at the feel of his hot wet tongue touching my skin, and as I am still processing this sensitive feeling, he begins to kiss my neck, pulling me even closer, exploring the trace of my bra through my blouse with his hands. What can I do, I am helpless at the touch of this young male being, my blood is hot and boiling with passion, every vain in my body is throbbing and calling out to London, "feel me, touch me, kiss me" I let my self go, at this point there is no turning back, I must have him, I must. I want to feel his hands all over me, I want to feel the heat of his breath on my body, I want to feel him inside me. As I read his notes, in my head I hear his voice saying to me how he is touching me, and I drift off again, feeling his soft lips press against my collar bone, then move up to my chin, kissing me slightly, and without any warning grabbing my lower lip with his lips and suck on them, then he gives ma a teasing look, smiles and lets go of my lip kissing me on the nose again. My eyes begin to wander, searching his face for an answer, "why are you torturing me?", and as though he understood me amid the silence, he grabs my neck and presses his lips on mine, and before he could push his tongue through, I opened up, almost swallowing his tongue as it dove into my mouth. We both groped together, tongue wrestling in each others mouths as we caressed each other ruffling our hair and pressing body parts. As the heat intensified, I knew he wanted me as much as I did him, for his manhood was as hard as a rock, and if not for the tough durability of the denim jeans he was wearing, I am very sure his dick would have burst through his pants,.....hahaha. But instead of grabbing me and penetrating me like a dog on heat, it was obvious he wanted to give me the utmost pleasure, for he pulled me down, slowly taking my underpants off, parting my legs and kissing me on my private. "OH MY GOD, how did he know this drives me wild, Duke would never do this to me even when i told him it was what i really loved" London kissed me over and over till I could feel my juices overflowing, I was in awe, and as if that was not enough, he used his tongue to part open the walls of my libido, searching out my clitoris and sucking on it till I screamed out from pleasure and had multiple orgasms,.... Okay this is to good to be true, and guess what? 13 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR pt 6 Sep 15, 2009 5:19 pm 1077 Views Oh my God I hate Duke, today he couldn't find his credit card and insisted it was with me, well yes I did take it to buy fuel a week ago but i put it right back in his wallet. Money has always been a big issue between us, even when i used to work, he would make me hand over my pay check to him and i wouldn't see a penny of what I made. If i needed anything, I would have to ask him, and he would only give me Money if he deemed what i needed necessary. I don't know how I have made it this far, but God knows if we had no kids, I would have been out of here.....He's very lucky I don't give him any trouble, another woman wont take the bullshit he has been giving me. My only consolation are my lovely kids, and London, hmmmmm, my sweet sweet London. This time I started imagining him sitting next to me at the movies, holding me close to him as we tried to watch the movie, stealing kisses every now and then, his hands brushing against my breast ever so often, making my nipple to harden, and causing me to begin to moisten in my lacy underwear, then i would slowly rub against his chest and move my hands down his thighs nonchalantly moving over his bulge as we interlock our tongues in a deep passionate kiss like two hungry animals, searching the depths of our mouths and feeling the increasing heat from our bodies as our sexual organs cry out to be used....ahhhhhhhhh, how i wanted him so bad, i felt like i hadn't been made love to my whole life.....ohhhhhh, if only it were real...... Yesterday I spoke to London on cam, we have been chatting a few days now, and boy is he GOOD looking....I just feel so alive when I am with him, its so unreal, and again I wonder, how can something so wrong feel so right. 3 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR pt 5 Sep 12, 2009 3:34 pm 1081 Views I couldn't wait to get online and see if London was there, it seemed like the mare thought of him was a shot of extra adrenalin rushing through me. How i secretly wished he was right next to me, I fantasized about the two of us, imagining me in a swimming pool, all wet from head to toe, and London, walking down to the shallow end, slowly putting his hand in the water and splashing at me, then he wades towards me and presses my back against the pool wall, brushing my hair off my face with one hand and grabbing me by the hips with another, i feel his hot breath against my neck as he kisses my shoulder, and runs his lips along my neck to my ears, making me gasp for air as i let my guard down. Ohhhhhhh.....I open my eyes to the sound of my phone ringing, its Duke, "hello, I am going to be home late, have an appointment with Harry, please get dinner ready, and make sure its tasty, not like what you gave me last night,...okay, see you" Yep, that's Duke, insensitive, critical, unemotional, self centered so called husband, at least that was my impression of him, because i needed an excuse, a reason to justify my affair with another man. 7 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR pt 4 Sep 3, 2009 9:30 pm 1200 Views today I called London, couldn't wait for him to call me, he was working and told me he would call me after work. I just couldn't wait, i needed to keep myself busy so i wouldn't think of him. I went into the garage, got the lawn mower, put some fuel in it, checked the oil, and started to push it out toward the lawn. My husband was on his way to work, "you wanna cut the grass?" he asked me, "uh huh" i replied. "why don't you wait for the gardener to come do it" he said, "that's okay, I can do it" i replied. And very nonchalantly, like all his responses to me, he shrugged his shoulders, said "okay", got into his SUV, and drove off. No bye, no see you later or I love you....... Damn you Duke for what you have made me become. A hungry love and attention seeking adulteress I looked at the time, it was almost 10:30am central time, i quickly calculated the time difference with London, and figured he would be getting off from work in about an hour and a half. I packed up the lawn mower without doing much, went to take a shower, and rushed to the nearest Walgreen to buy a web cam. What was I thinking, web cam, for what???. A sudden fear came over me, not the fear of doing something wrong, but the fear of being exposed, the fear of being caught..... 10 Comments

FEMALE CIRCUMCISION, WHATS THE REASON ??? Sep 2, 2009 4:31 pm 1200 Views I just recently read a post from a news paper in Africa about female circumcision. It was about a man taking his wife to court because she refused for their teen aged daughter to get circumcised. I know in some areas, some customs, cultures and traditions require the females to be circumcised, but what really is the big idea in female circumcision, does it in any way enhance the woman's sexuality, guard against promiscuity, cause a lack of interest, what is it that they feel cutting a young girls personal area would benefit her ??? 8 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR pt 3 Sep 2, 2009 8:42 am 1126 Views Its been about a week now, and London has called me every single day on his way to work and back. Most times I would have to go out of the house, to the bathroom or garage to answer the call if my husband is home, so he doesn't hear my conversation. Yep i have been sneaking around my matrimonial home talking to a young hottie who for the past week has given me the most attention I have gotten in 8 years. Oh, just so you know, London didn't know I was married or that I had any children, in fact, he didn't know any truth about me, except what I told him. To London, I was a single 28 year old interior designer living with my family, and the truth was I was a 34 year old woman who didn't work, had little or no relations with her husband took care of three children, and was socially, emotionally and physically miserable. I hated my life and my marriage, I hated the fact that my husband didn't even care to notice me even when i tried to let him know how i felt, but i couldn't leave. My children were so young, and i didn't want to put them through any emotional trauma because of my selfish needs, or so I thought. I began to talk to London on line and on the phone a lot, and I noticed that the more I talked to him, the more I began to take note of my self. I started shaving my legs again, and i shaved off all the hair on my pubic area, waxed my eye brows and went to the salon to get my hair and nails done. I felt like a teenager in love for the first time........ 2 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR pt 2 Sep 1, 2009 9:05 pm 1148 Views It was about late evening, I am not sure of the time, I heard my phone ring, and ran to answer it, but couldn't get to it on time. I checked to see who called and once i saw his number, my heart began to beat faster. It was London !!! My mind began to think of all sorts of things, I have to call him back, no.......what am I doing???......call him back, .......oh God this is crazy. I rushed to look through my purse to see if I had any calling cards that had credit on them, then my phone rang again, it was him, I didn't even let the phone ring a second time before I answered. "Hello, hey how are you" I couldn't believe it, I was all flushed at the sound of his voice, what is happening to me, I don't even know this guy, neither have I seen him before, and I cant seem to control what I am doing. NO......I don't want to control what I am doing. And so it began...... pls feel free to leave comments or questions 3 Comments

MY LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR pt 1 Aug 31, 2009 6:12 pm 1076 Views Its been 8 years I have been married, with three lovely children, but I am yet to feel like I am his completely or he is mine. Don't get me wrong, he is a good man, he takes care of his house and provides the basic needs, but yet I feel so empty, like there is this big void that needs to be filled. And its this feeling that made me begin to imagine........... At first it started with just browsing and watching movies online, until I came upon a free movie site that had a chat room. I thought what the heck! , I might as well sign up, after all I don't have anything doing, and that's when it all began. The day after I signed up, I decided to join the chat room and see what the people were talking about, and that's where i met him, 'London' even though i had no clue as to what he looked like, or who he was, we took up conversing very intimately. We exchanged email addresses and phone numbers and immediately, he called. I was surprised that he would call me that quick, my heart began to race. I felt all flushed like a teenager dating for the first time as he asked me question after question........We talked for over an hour. I asked him if the call wasn't costing him too much but he insisted that he was okay and was enjoying our conversation he didnt want to hang up just yet. His voice was so comforting, and the attention he was giving me so alluring I had to remind myself that I was a married woman, but at the same time, i felt i had every right to carry on what i was doing after all i had not felt like this the past eight years. The next morning London called me at about 7:30 am, I jumped out of bed and ran downstairs to answer the call, he was on his way to work and called to say hello........I thought it was very sweet of him to call me like that, in fact i felt i must have created quite an impression for him to call me back so soon. We talked until he got to his job, and when i got upstairs my husband asked me who was on the phone with me................... (watch out for the rest of the story.......) 2 Comments

The complications of life Aug 30, 2009 11:20 pm 1112 Views What I find funny another finds dull What I find amusing, another frowns upon What I find attractive, another finds repulsive What I find acceptable, another rejects What I find sensitive, another finds insensitive What I find............! What I find............!! What I find............!!! what I find, what you find, Does it really matter??? We were all created different and unique You don't have to find...! what I find...!, That's what makes us who we are Don't you think???? 5 Comments

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